okay, so I’m old

I used to be young…I used to be able to do a lot more…..more often…days of being active..

I could always recover….now, it isn’t just a given….

so you make changes right, you come to realize that, 63 isn’t 26….so, to deal with that…

recover…no more running day after day, twice a day, every day with no rest days….I need to run, assess….every other day, and do other things…swim, bike, yoga, and just make sure to rest, to recover, to not stress about and over what I can’t do, focus on what I can, and will….

I also am dealing with a head injury……almost 2 years ago, I fell, I knocked myself out, and fractured my skull, gave myself a concussion that just won’t go away….I still wake up with a headache…..at times it seems like it’s getting better, and then I go out for a longer and quicker run, or I just to add rides and swims to the runs, and I wake up the next day, and the head says…nope, you’ve over done it…

I am going to say, it scares me a little….I don’t know if it’s the pain behind my eyes, or the occasional nausea, but at times, the memory, the focus does get shaky….age, or head……..?………..so, like Kenny Rogers says, you’ve gotta know when to roll, and when to hold I guess, and to look after myself….

my biggest mistake, was not to look after myself at the start, right after the fall…..I’m a guy, so, indistructable?….maybe not…or is it age that is why this is taking so long……is it too late to look after myself?……..

I just want to keep moving…if I have to back off to do that, so be it…I’m old and I’m injured…it just is what it is?…..

will it get better, can it get better, can what I’m going through, and dealing with it help others…….

that’s the goal of this blog…getting beyond the frustraition