so, sorry for this, but this may have a lot of text…..I need to vent, at myself…so yep, looking in a mirror as I type..
last week was a good, maybe even a great week…I felt double A positive all week, this week…it’s like I’ve lots the will to move…the couch has become my friend……and yeah, this lap top….
yep, I still pretty much wake up every morning with a head that hurts…it now seems to have focused on the front of my skull, just between the eyes and above my nose….but some days it does move around…
I finally signed back up with Zwift …because, well, I like spinnin’. I have had issues with Zwift before (seems a lot more of a challenge to connect then it should be, and yesterday’s attempt connect thru Apple TV wasn’t a happy experience. I dodn’t throw anything, but I was filling up the swear jar!)
Spinning is kind of like my my comfort food…I just throw the bike on it’s trainer and kill time…and yeah, sweat….
It’s not running – I have no desire to get on a treadmill, EVER – but it’s an easy out. And it looks and feels like I’m doing something…….and relaxing, and well, it’s here…
My other go to when I’m stuck on the couch, well, I shop….do I need another sport watch? not really..but this thing looks like so much fun….
Why?……..it’s new, and maybe if I spent a million dollars on something, it would help get be out the door? How could you not own something called Wahoo?…..and multisport no less….and apparently all you have to do, is just know…it somehow knows if you’re running, biking or swimming…..how?…..does it come with a drone?…..but they do have a cool web site, and that may inspire me?
Two years – the 2nd anniversary of this Humpty Dumpty having that great fall is in about a week – some days are better than others, and I do listen to that head….some days after a few steps I feel okay, and some days after a few Ks I don’t, so I give it a break….but, I always get this feeling I should be pushing myself…I WANT TO RUN A HALF MARATHON NEXT MAY!!! so I have to get my ass and head in gear…it seems like I spent most of 2021 trying to get to 21K, just 21K, not 42, just 21…..I think I hit 15K a few times, some days because, and some days because I’d gotten lost…..so, suprise..and at least once I had to run around the Kinsmen parking lot like a crazy person for that 1 more K….
Sometimes I make to do lists lists….and yes that helps, but again, depends on me…..am I using my head as an excuse?……..but lists can change…..stuff can be crossed off…..
for instance today was supposed to begin with a run and a swim….at least that was the plan when I went to bed last night….woke up this morning, and nah…not today….today has been all about finding other things to do (like this Blog!!!???) instead of …anything
The whole point of this Blog was, well, if I put in down on, well, paper, or out to the whole world….I’d do it?
The struggle continues…..and journey……later……