Feeling a little lost today…actually not a little, really lost.

I thought I had plans set for 2022. I was gearing up my life, looking forward to something new.

Today, plans came to a end, something I was looking forward to, well, I guess ain’t happening.

I’m not sure why, actually haven’t been told why, a clinic I thought I was going to instruct next month, well, I’m not…….a door’s been slammed shut.

So what to do?

I guess reboot?………..

Since I began this blog back in, June?……..I had no idea what the point was.

Do I make it about/for thise learning to run?

Do I make it about me, and using me to instruct, motivate, direct and guide? – actually I like that!

I’m just lost right now……I still plan on Vancouver for a Half Marathon on May 1st, and a Full during the second half of 2022……..

I also plan on keeping up, being more and more engaged…..so running, biking, swimming, volunteering and cheering…and being a husband and a dad……

And, well, the focus on this blog, will be, well, expect more, um, focused…….

I had been thinking of ditching the categories, because, well, up until now this had become all about me……it still may be…..but expect to be more about everything else……

I recently read that every run should be like a science experiment…….testing, learning about nutrition, pace, mental imagery, whatever……so expect some of that…

Yesterday, for instance, the day was about finding the time to run……..I had Christmas shopping to get done, needed to get groceries cause, making dinner is my job…wrapping and planning for the season……but, the lesson was, there’s always time…..

I just had to go……now, this is not the time of year to go somewhere other than close to home to start…I have my fave spots, but, well, busy, busy, busy….but I just had to get changed, grab my shoes, and get out the door!…….

That’s all it takes, the motivation to open that back door, and go…….honestly, that some days seems to be the hardest thing…..I know I need to get out, but, yeah, sometimes opening that screen door seems knocking down a brick door……because, as soon I’m outside it, and start moving, feeling those shoes biting into the snow and ice……..I think of nothing else..one foot in front of the other, and letting my feet and my head pick the route/

It was short, not quite 5K, but a few new turns, a few roads and trails I hadn’t been on for a while..and it just felt right…and the trick is, to remember that the next time I feel that struggle…

It’s Christmas, there’s a lot going on, and a lot of reasons not to do much more than eat, drink, sleep, and shop……but as someone once told me, well, recently, there’s always time…….

Today, well, I rode the bike trainer….that helped the mood, I got some strength from that ride, and it helped re-boot my head…..my focus…to be honest, I didn’t take my own advise, I should have run…I always feel so much better after…..but, well tomorrow….

So lesson today……let a negative go, create a positive….and yeah, look at that positive….I could be – maybe should be bitter….but well, no Running Room Virtual Clinic to instruct, but, well, now to look for something else…..tomorrow morning, I’ll run with that.