yes…my son is celebrating being 30 something today…..my daughter is almost there….I do have a third, I think she took this pix…….but yeah, my two kids…both are autistic……

Have to say, as they grew up we’d always hear that ‘it must be hard’……it wasn’t/isn’t, it just is….

It seems harder now….actually ever since they finished school, and as they both, and as we try to help them navigate the world….find a life for life…….finding employment is pretty much impossible…..Jim has had a few jobs, but there’s always the issue that he’s not like everyone else, and other’s/his employer not understanding that, and what that means…..

And friends….Sasha has never really had, so it’s just us…Jim has, but they’ve all grown, moved away, so he’s struggling as well…..you try and put them in places where maybe they’ll make connections, but again, they’re different.

It always surprises me when one of my friends cross paths with Jim……he’s pretty stoic, but friendly…he will say hello, and they do introduce themselves..so that’s good….but, well, my wife and I are not spring chickens, and this as time goes by is all new to us too…every day, month, year….and the future is not set, or comfortable…….

Jim I think will be okay as time goes by…he’s pretty independent, but, you worry….work and money and life………and Sasha, there’s nothing really for her…..when we’re gone, what happens to them?

This isn’t the Rain Man, this isn’t a movie with Tom Cruise…….real life….it’s not comfortable, mostly it’s something that keeps you up at night, you always worry…….

I’ll have a lot of time to think this weekend…..decided to let my back heal…do a lot of stretching, some yoga…and head out for that run on Sunday…..being older, I have to make sure that I look after myself and be able to run for life……

it’s about getting ready for the future…mine, and the kids