This has nothing to do with running or training today, I just need to ramble. So far, I hate being 64, being old, I hate being me at the best of times, but an old me…..not at all.
The music I listen to, what I like, I like to do, 64? I’m so not ready to be 64…
Seriously, right now I’m listening to Miley Cyrus…..and someone called the Saturdays?
Am I supposed to?
But, I’m old? I don’t fit into a crowd. People my own age, or those younger….I’m at both ends….things that I think are really cool, my fiends don’t understand…and when someone younger than me finds out about the things I like, they think I’m strange……
64? It feels like yesterday I was on a beach in Vancouver……chilling…..now, well, I’m not there…..I’ve omg got grey hair?……and lots of it
I like some things about being old……or older. I like that I get discounts?……I have a pension, so I really don’t have to work……but I like doing what I do, and want to do more….
I also just want to have fun…I’ve got a lot of runs and races in me…..but, well, am I too old go to an all night Rave?
I am addicted to watching the 100, I really hate the politics of people my age…..I seriously have no time for bigots, intollerant morons….or people who’s only opnions are ones that take away options from other people…….and yet, well, I like capitol punushment……
I also hate the way people younger than me, react to me…..because I’m old……I don’t fit in anywhere…
Tomorrow….well, another day of this…..being who or what I am, and figuring that out. and I guess I’d better get used to being 64, I can’t do anything about that……and I can’t pretend to be 18 or 40 or whatever………I guess I just be me and hope for the best?
I know the one thing I won’t be……sitting in Tim Horton’s whining about everything and anything….and drinking a double double…or in a bar pounding down beer after beer….
I know I want to be better…..so……
2023…..run, bike, swim, strength, doing stuff, lots of stuff … on my own, with family and kids…doing, not watching
I want to seriously learn everything I can…fitness, health, become a sponge…digging into my training with a goal, personal trainer…or at least in that direction….I have a year.
Outside….lots outside….get those skiis outside….
2023…..can I make every day count…..Monday I ran, yesterday spin class, ran, made a pretty good meal for the kids and me……today sold shoes, hung out, chatted….but, well…..too many hours on this couch…
not a great start to 2023…..