I know what I’ve gotta do……I’ve gotta move, I’ve gotta run!

I also know I have to get and stay social…..f!!!!…I teach this stuff..but for some reason now I feel like I’m stuck in the mud.

I keep going to bed all pumped up and ready to roll

I wake up, groggy and dead and depressed and ready to go back to bed…..WTF!

How is Saturday awesome, today, and yesterday, just like I’m stuck in mud.

This morning, I had the alarm set, my gear all ready to go.

I slept well……..just dead to the world.

I can blame a lot of stuff…life has gotten tuff. family stuff, autistic kid stuff, aging parents stuff and my head stuff..and lots of stuff I want to do stuff, stuff….too much watching the news stuff….but

Can really only blame the face I see in the mirror every day, every morning…..wake up and run…

Saturday was so awesome…in the dark, two (or maybe the same one twice) coyote, all on my own….and easy made up 6K…..and yeah, felt dead tired and like crap the rest of the day..but I’ve gotta keep remembering that…reminding myself….

I’ve got this drinking a gallon of H2O a day thing beat….reading every day…at least 10 pages, that;s my starting point…I shut this thing and my phone off an hour B4 bed, shut the TV off as well……get my gear all set, I have my next goal(s) all stuck on my ensuite mirror, I see that every day, the last thing and the first thing….

I know my next goal…a trail run, with lots of hills…May 7th…yes there’s a 10K before then, but that’ll just be a part of the training for that…….a goal I’m looking forward to….I’ve decided that for sure, no half marathon in Vancouver this year…yeah, that has been hard to let go of, but there are five 5 peak races, I want to do all 5, am committed to doing all 5…….so, a goal. and a full on marathon in August….

I’m going to give it another shot tomorrow morning…start the f-ing day with a run….early, in the dark….now, what do I do tonight and in the morning to make sure that happens………sleep outside?….maybe put some raw meat on the back step to attract my coyote running buddy?……….

It’s just after 1PM here right now…maybe it’s a diet thing?…..I’m dead tired, I watching and reading everything I usually go to whenever I need to motivate myself………but…well tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow….wake up get dressed, step out the door, run………..one step, two step, three step, four??????

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