Do I write lines over and over again? I will wake up and run..no matter what?

I’m going to make the attempt, that’s the goal right now, anyway…..wake up, grab something to eat and drink really quickly, drive th Devon (43 kilometres away) a 36 minute drive depending on traffic…..I need to be at that parking lot by 9 to run at 10AM….a whole 8K on single track…with lots and lots of people

it be nice to get a few race bibs before the year’s end, there’s not that many events left, and not much of a year left……….

I have been struggling for so long….let’s say 12 years, it’s like a phobia, I like racing, I like events, I like running, but getting out of bed to attend one seems to be more of the challenge that the actual event.

In the mornings, it just seems a problem of getting up, waking up, and just going……I should be able to hop out, ready to go, I used to be able to do that…and now, not….

Sleeping enough? Over sleeping?…What the hell is it?

Confidence?…..I’m not going to win anything, I know I can complete the distances..I know what needs to be done…….and I know, I know, why not just start, even if I suck?

Do I need to set an example?….What;s expected of me?……

Seriosly, I just want to see old friends, and as part of getting back to where I was, I just need to do this?

Make a start….take a step……..get this done.

This year, 2023, has not been great…an 8K run, and a 10K……..that’s it…working one race, volunteering at another………..will that be it?…….

I guess I will see what happens when the alarm clock wakes me up, if it does…

The plan is to dirty the new Saucony Peregrines, do I wear the Brooks tights or shorts?…..probably tights, a the long sleeve………..my lucky cap?………..socks? not sure yet…packing hydration…..I guess I’ll need something warm for afters, and hopefully there’s a lot of coffee after………I just better just remember to show up…