23 Days; Life is what you make it

I guess……..today was kind of a do nothing day…..

almost

my days usually start out the same; I struggle to get out of bed, I whine, mope, then I go and do what I really want to do…..

this morning, hitting the weights…I was pretty worn down after 3 pretty strong training runs, so, well, it’s Friday, I never really have time to run after or before work on Fridays anyway, it’s still too cold to ride to work (maybe next week) so weights it is……I love my gym, the famous Sturgeon Valley Athletic Club….they’ve treated me really great, and because I look after their run club, they’ve given me a free membership…so all good……

It’s a beautiful facility, small, but equipped well, everything a kid could want to play with…lots of classes, spin bikes, yoga…..and a ton of other things on offer…..and it’s close….the only thing, no pool….but still perfect…

The Run Club is coming along well too…so all good.

Anyway the workout went well…..that used to be my life…….I was never all that strong..but I was a novice level bodybuilding judge for a while….and the gym was my home…than I became a runner…

One momentous moment in my life was when I heard the words, idea to action…in other words, instead of thinking about it, just do it…….and for the most part, now I do…

Really that’s it right? Just think, maybe, what’s the worst that could happen….not even that…….if things don’t work out, if it doesn’t look right, or turn out…just go back, and start again….

Also just do stuff…I’ve spent most of my life doing what other’s thought I should, or better shouldn’t…..I’ve grasped onto others, what others thought…..I tried to fit in, in so many ways….well, for how long do you do that………at some point, maybe way before now, you have to be what you wanna be (sounds like a Spice Girls song….well, now I just do….

And try things…go for a run, hop on a bike, swim, weights….go shopping…yoga? sure, why not?

Just get away from the front of the TV…get the feet off of the coffee table, a be a do-er, not a watcher..

I’m doing this, way late in life…but whatever….maybe that’s it, I’m at the point where I don’t give a fuck what people think…but, there’s a problem too, right? I have no idea what I’m supposed to be, or how I’m supposed to act………I don’t feel 63…I do look it, I know I’m 63….I can’t fool anyone…..but I really don’t fit in with anyone my age. I just have nothing in common……

Anyway, kind feeling great, awesome anyway…..an enlarged prostate, my cholesterol is high for some reason…..but yeah, running, swimming, riding, living my life……..some days, most days are positive, others not so much, but aiming at a trip to Vancouver, has me feeling okay…

Everyday has me feeling good..I seem to be smiling way more often…

training is well….maybe again, I should have waiting before I pulled the plug on the half marathon….but, well, Vancouver will be for fun, as will everyday before than…all 23 days

34 Days. A Good day in the snow…all good

the pace was nothing to write home about, but it felt good….even the trudging through the snow, and at some spots snow covered ice….and sometimes, soft ice, cover in snow, that breaks as soon as you step on it and you end up with a soaking wet shoe and foot……

and yeah, the pace was good for what it was…I was planning on a 5K, and then was disappointed with the 7.69K…so, I went out for a bit more

It wasn’t much, but I felt I need to get closer to 10K……….and it felt good.

The day after a good 5K with my Run Club buddy Amy…..actually it was a 6K…..so a good two days….

yeah I need to shave…and maybe contacts?…….where has all that grey hair come from….I’m feeling and looking my age….I’m not happy about that…I’m having a tuff time dealing with being 63…….

I have no idea how 63 s supposed to look, or dress, sound….what is someone that’s 63 supposed to do…what is right?

I remember my grandparents in their 60s, is that me…….what happened to being in my 20s, hell, 30s…..?

I really need this trip to Vancouver….I don’t care if it rains, is sunny, I just need that break…I can sense that around home as well………I need a reboot…….

I’ve had a few good weeks…working out, getting involved at my club, hitting the weights, and just getting out and about feels together…..

This morning was actually a good test….I really didn’t feel like running…I am tired of the snow, today wet snow…..I had to record a shoe talk for an upcoming clinic, got that done, and thought, ‘do I really want to, need to run?’

and as usual, as soon as I took my first step…..it felt as it should, good…..

I’ve a huge MD appointment on Wednesday, hopefully I’ll get some answers….why my head still hurts at times…..and few other things…a lot of tests later…is this an age thing…

I’m looking forward to getting rid of the winter shoes, the Saucony Peregrines, and getting into something lighter, and on roads, sidewalks and trails of bare tarmac…hopefully that’ll mean more speed…or just a little more effortless…..yeah, time to begin packing…

Yes, I’m sort of unsure how I feel about traveling so far for basically an 8K and a 5K run……but, well, maybe it’ll launch me into the summer and a good 63rd year…