It was a rough start to the day, and it took a long time to get okay….seriously started wonder where I could get some fentanyl……I know that’s not funny or proper, but a pretty awful Saturday morning…and considering how positive I was feeling yesterday evening, it was a huge dive downward.

I pretty much stayed in bed for the morning, and didn’t really crawl out of my bedroom umtil after 1PM…..watched some TV, figured maybe watching All the President’s Men would Cheer Me Up (one of my fave movies of all time…..I’d forgotten that both Jane Alexander and Meredith Baxter were in it……

But really I just mopped most of the day until after dinner….

It was just a crazy day…my autistic daughter, adult daughter, just keeps getting worse and worse and more unable to control herself…..it’s almost like turrets is part of her package, something she can’t control….and I kind of didn’t take my end of being an understanding dad well.

I finally decided, I wanted to go for a walk, some fresh air, so why not? what’s to stop me?

And it was the right call….I wasn’t the only one thinking the same thing…..lots of guys, a few on bikes, and yes some walking their dog…..a beautiful evening..and yeah, the walk, I should have gone this morning…it would probably made the world feel better, sooner..